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Caz,
I understand how you could feel this way. It's really hard sometimes to make it through. But please try to focus on the good memories of Dominic. He would want you to remember him at his best.
Don't know if you're religious or not, I'm not a church-goer but I do believe. When my dad passed, I found a lot of comfort in Psalm 121. I also left it for Frank, on our blog, after his grandmother passed.
The sound of it, and the image it gave me, soothed me when I felt so lost.
Hang in there, honey. Time really does help.
love always
Jen
MissT,
You know me well enough to know that I will not sit here and tell you not to feel the way you feel right now. I have spent the better part of my life listening to people tell me to shut up, or to not cry, or to not be mad, or sad, or upset. You have every right to feel this way. It's completely fucked up what happened to your cousin. Life is fucked up, but life is also oh so beautiful. You just have to decide to wake up tomorrow and look at it in a whole new light. Your hurt will always be there, but it will get easier. Time is funny like that...whether you want it to or not it keeps going and it forces you to move on. Now I feel like I am babbling and giving you nothing useful to work with here.
So I will just say this...let yourself continue to cry, grieve, and hurt because then you will continue to grow, heal, and live.
I love you....and I hope that I have helped you. You are a great friend and I don't know what I'd do without you. Who would lead me back to the light when I get lost? Who would stop me from wandering the streets talking to myself?
Love you to pieces,
S
Thank you guys but it's been 5 years since dad died, 3 since Dom died and I just don't see any future.
Things have not got better, they have got worse.
I have depression and no job. I have no idea what I want to do with myself.
I never ever look forward to anything anymore.
A week after my dad died, we were supposed to be going on holiday as a family. Instead dad was snatched from us.
I was looking forward to christmas then Dom was snatched from us.
I was looking forward to last summer then mum got breast cancer. Thank god she was cured or believe me I wouldn't be here now. I would've given up the fight by now.
I just never look forward to anything and don't know whay i bother anymore.
I try to make others happy but I don't feel it.
I don't know what to do.
But you all have your own problems so you don't need to listen to me whine.
misst
your feelings are your feelings, there is no right or wrong way to feel,
grief is a very difficult thing to deal with and it can take a very long time, but as sdock said, it helps you heal and grow.
I just see that you must have loved him very much and that you still do and that is beautiful.
He was very special and very blessed to have had a cousin like you.
Even though none of us really know you, there are so many people virtually holding you up right now that you can take some time to let yourself fall into those arms and feel however you need to.
Thinking of you in your time of need, and knowing you will work through it your way
love B
Thank you so much people.
I love each and every one of you.
Of course I need to listen to you, that's what I'm here for. You can't take away my purpose. I might have been put on this earth just for you, MissT.
I'm not going to spit out a bunch of stuff for you to read. I just want you to know that we've all been there...some have been there and back. Some are still sitting there. Some haven't been there, yet, but they will. That's what makes life what it is. It's fragile, it's tragic, it's completely fucked...but it's also lovely, beautiful, and lots of fun.
MissT, you have to find it again. Come on...We will help you. I promise. I am 33 years old. I have a job, but no career. I am going to end up bitter and alone just like my mother if I am not careful. We all have such tragic stories, but we were brought here together for a reason. Don't you feel it? I know you do.
I have never been to a doctor, so I don't know if you are battling clinical depression....might be something you want to check into. Myself, I like the manic ups and downs. I'm so used to.
Please...let us help you. Please.
misst everybody need somebody to whine to, especially when life seems at it's darkest.
It will get better but I absolutely understand how you can't see that. it is so easy to give out platitudes and cliches at times like this but it really will be something you can get through. just take little steps and don't give up, and you can whinge to me all you like if you want, my email is always open.
I wish I could help more but I don't know how.
But I will be there for you however I can.
Sdock, I do have clinical depression but I have my tablets and I'm not too bad on an ordinary day.
I love all you guys and I would never leave you to wander the streets alone.
We can be bitter old women together.
I would never do anything stupid because I would never hurt my mum like that but I so want to sometimes. It is only family that keep me hanging on.
And I do feel that you are all my family now.
I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow but tonight I had to get my feelings out.
Thanks again Ergo, sdock and J. You are all wonderful people. I'm so glad I met you all (so to speak).
MissT, no you don't. Please, don't even say things like this. ANd you're not whining, you're venting, and we all have to do that once in a while. you're entitled to vent. You have to or you go nuts. So, even if you just want to pour it all out, just do so. It helps. And you know NO ONE is going to judge you.
We love you.
missT,
Honey, we all want to sometimes. Or at least I do...I won't speak for anyone else. And I think it's so good you are getting these feelings out. It will do more good for you than you even realize now.
Let it pour, let it bleed, let flow....and let it heal.
I am so glad we are here for each other.
I can't lecture you because, as you may have read, I've spent a good many years feeling the same way off and on.
I won't bother telling you that twice my job has been to talk people out of thinking that same way.
I would like to inform you however, that I admired you very much. I selfishly wanted the chance to say that to you before you're gone.
Eventually, you will get exactly what you want. I wonder if I would be expected to be happy about that...
Miss T,
I am so sorry. You are a wonderful person with a heart of gold and you were one of the first people who was nice to me at the blog. You've had some bad luck the past few years, but time will help you heal, believe me. I know you may not want to hear that right now, but things will get better.
Love,
Dawn
starryhalo@yahoo.com ANYTIME!
Thank you so much Kapunua.
I can't help but feel that I am dragging everyone else down though, and that makes me feel bad.
I really hope Trisky will be oK.
Thank you sdock, Star and AIP.
I wish I could hug all of you.
I wouldn't hurt my mum like that but I won't pretend that I don't have these feelings.
I just really needed to vent today.
Thank you all for listening, you have helped more than you realise.
I'm not very good with words ex special at times like this. I feel that any words I would say would sound hollow. I just want you to know that I'm your friend and I am with you.
Thank you Martha, I love you.
Miss Tottenham,
I don't have much to say that will help. (or that hasn't already been said=])
All I know is, if you need to cry, then don't be scared to shed your tears. Crying is therapeutic for the soul, and it does help. If I could, I would give you a thousand and three million hugs. I love you too much to not try and comfort you.
Like the OP's said, time does help heal. The memories will remain, just don't block them out. If you EVER need to talk, I am here for you. We all are here for you.
All my love;
- 007
*HUG*
Thank you paperheart, you are always a sweetie.
Don't even say such a thing. Seriously, don't worry me like that. We care about you so much.
I know right now life is really hard for you. You've written a blog about everything you've endured over the past couple of years a while ago reading that really broke my heart. You know I love you. I'm so, so sorry about everything that has happened, sweetie. I know it's hard.
Remember, I'm always here if you need a shoulder to cry on. I'm always here. Just don't do anything to hurt yourself, ever. That's not the answer.
I love you.
Thank you so much CTV, I love you.
caz.
i tried my best tonight and i am sorry if i didnt succeed. i will not start to talk about any of this becuase i do not know what it feels like but please know that just becuase i am not saying things doesnt mean i am not listening.
i am here for you to talk to and i am on aim and msn and email. you can not get away from me and i wouldnt want you to. you and all the other people here have given me the friendship that i dont have anymore and you know why caz. but you have friends here and they all care and love you.
they will always be with you in your heart and in your memories. you can talk to them becuase they will be listening. they may not say anything back but they are listening and they will be looking out for you.
i really love you my sheffy wag and i will be here when you are ready.
stay sfe caz and remember things seem different in the morning. remember what i told you on aim before i had to go out and think about it.
xx
FS, you were my rock tonight.
You know that you always make me laugh like no one else.
Thank you.
Miss T,
I'm thinking about you.
Mustard
Miss T,
I just saw this before going to bed.
Hang on please. It's okay to vent. Try to focus on the good memories. He was special, but so are you. You must be kind to yourself today.
You are very important too! I am just getting to know you, and I care for you and your wellbeing.
We will ALWAYS be prepared to listen to you, no matter what, big or small. I am so glad I had a chance to meet you, even though it's on a blog. I think you are a lovely girl!
MissTottenham said...
FS, you were my rock tonight.
You know that you always make me laugh like no one else.
Thank you.
05 December 2007 21:22
oh my goodness it not nice to laugh at someone just becuase they support manchester united. meany
hahahahahahaha just cos you know there the best lol
ok messing again spurs and the devils are joint best just for you hun
did you have a nice sleep. i hope your ok. i meant everything i said in my comment and i also hae crabs wink wink.
i am off to school in 1 hour and then i am going o go smell like wet dogs. nice
i will be on at 6 my time if i am lucky so it will be 11 your time. will i see you tonight?
xx
I stopped in this morning and I see this. My heart just about stopped. I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. If you ever need to talk, if you ever need to vent, if you ever need to laugh, you know where to find me.
All of us truly care so much about you. I care about you. I wish I lived by you so I could come over and give you a big hug. I would take you out for some coffee and a cookie. We would talk until the sun came up. And then we would giggle nonstop about the stupidest things because we were so delirious from lack of sleep and strung out on coffee! :0
Caz, I'm here if you need anything at all.
Love you.
Love,
Shannon
Mustard, Katherine, FS and Anima.
Thank you so much. I do feel a lot better today.
All your well wishes mean so much to me and got me through a bad day. Words cannot express how grateful i am to everybody.
Caz, you and I are a lot more alike than you know.
My mom got sick in '93. When I took her to Emerg, the doctors were telling me to start making arrangements, because she wasn't going to make it. My mom is the most important person in my life, too. Like your mom, she came back from an illness/disease that almost killed her.
What the experience taught me is, don't live in the past. Don't worry about the future. The only thing you have to do is love the people you love, and get through TODAY. Tomorrow can be dealt with tomorrow, and the past can't be changed.
The next time you feel low like this (and you & I both know that this feeling comes & goes), please - reach out again. We're all here for you. We all love you, baby. I love you.
Think about today, and today only. The rest will all come together when it's meant to. Sdock said it perfectly -- life is tragic, awful, and so fucked up. But it's also beautiful.
I'm so very glad you decided to stay. *squishes you HARD*
hank you so much sis m, you have put a smile on my face.
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