Wednesday, 19 December 2007

Dunno

Do you ever feel, why do I even bother?

13 comments:

sdock10 said...

MissT,

Of course I feel that way...like every fucking day....sometimes multiple times in a day...sometimes multiple times in an hour. You know what's on the other side of a downer, don't you??

...an UPPER!! Just ride it out baby. I'll be here with you, holding your hand in the dark, waiting with you until we see the light again.

Have you noticed how quiet I have been lately? ...well, quiet for me anyway...Sometimes, I have to stop, step back, and remind myself why I am here. And I go completely back to the start...Mayo. I talk to him, first. It takes all this complicated shit and makes it simple again.

I like to lurk...I spent most of last night just lurking and sometimes I felt left out, sometimes I felt sad, and sometimes I felt relieved that I didn't have anything to say....because sometimes it's okay to be quiet and listen to no one but yourself.

Feel me?

I love you babe and don't you forget it!

MissTottenham said...

Thank you sdock, you always know what to say.

JocelynHolly said...

Miss Tottenham,

You know what's on the other side of a downer, don't you??

...an UPPER!!


Sdock is right. Things will get better sooner or later.

After you are gone from the blogs for a while, and you come back, it's like everything is different, you feel left out, you feel like you have nothing to say. I haven't told anyone, but that is how I feel every single day. I feel like I have nothing left to offer. I know what you are feeling right now, I truly do.

You and Sdock truly are amazing people. I would not be who I am today without you both. I've learned to have faith, hope and love.

If you need to talk more, I am here for you babe. Forever and for always.

xoxo;
- 007

Jennicula said...

Yes, I feel. Sometimes too much and my head might explode. Or my heart.

I've hung back on the blogs. It's getting too crazy lately. I talk to a few who help keep me sane. I have to take a step back sometimes and regroup.

I'm sure I'll jump in, when the water is clearer and a bit warmer.

sister midnite said...

Sweetie,you KNOW I get what you're saying. Hell, I helped write the book on 'why do I bother?'.

There are just so many people on Mayo these days, and now we have three blogs just to hold all teh people. Don't get me wrong; I love having different places to visit, and catch up with the family. But I'm also finding it really hard to keep up with anything that's happening. (Being in the time zone I'm in doesn't help, either.) I know that quite a few of us long-timers are beginning to feel overwhelmed.

On days like that, I find it's best to just talk about whatever comes to mind. If people don't like it, they can skim!

*hugz* If you want to talk, about ANYTHING at all, you know where to find me.

I love you, Caz! ^__^
(And Ernie, too, of course.)

- Nikki / Sis M

MissTottenham said...

Thank you paperheart, jen and sis m (and Ernie).

I love you guys. It just gets a bit sad on the blogs sometimes and it makes me wonder why I stick around.

I know why I stick around. All you wonderful people of course.

Pickled Possum said...

Hi there Chrissy Missy.

I've been liking your christmas postings!

We all get the why do I bother feeling sometimes. It's easy to get lost here. But remember Mayo's latest blog. He's still seeing you, as is SS. Like Sd says, just remember them if it gets too much.

A number of people are unsettled at the moment. Even allowing for the large amount of contributors, I wonder if the seasons are coming into play.

Love to you,
PP

MissTottenham said...

Thank you PP, you are a sweetie.

Anonymous said...

Hey MissT :)


I just dropped into say that I'm thinking about you and our family, too.

See you around :)

MissTottenham said...

Thank you so much mustard, That is so sweet of you. I love you.

Jade said...

Oh MissT, I didn't eat all my sweeties I had today and I just knew there was a reason for it.

Eat some, they will surely make things better!

I've felt like this plenty of times, and you can plainly see from my blogs just how I'm feeling. It's tiring to be here, and the stress and the confusion of it all gets to us. But MissT, things will get better for you, I promise.

You have us here, always remember.

dei gratia said...

Yeah, I do!
Don't wanna got out of my jammies....can't be arsed.

E-mail when you need to sweetie!

MissTottenham said...

Thank you so much jade and dg. I love you guys.