LAURA DIED.
There, I said it. makes it all real now I guess.
It is so sad, Laura was the one who battled bravely, always had a smile on her face, always believed she would beat it. Even thought it was hilarious when she had chemo and had to have a wig.
She talked me and mum through what mum had to face and always gave us strength. She was an amazing person. Mum is totally gutted too.
We have all done some crying and lots of cuddling.
We know that mum only had a few cells that hadn't spread anywhere and her doctor told her she would have a total cure. She didn't need chemo so we know mum was a total different case to Laura.
I went to the shops today and the first thing I saw when I walked through the door was the tickled pink range. that is a range of t-shirts and trackies sold to raise money for breast cancer. Made my head hurt, I had to get out of there.
My sis came home early from work today so I could cry on her shoulder.
We'll be OK, it's just that Laura was such a big part of our cancer story too and we wanted a happy outcome for everyone.
Sadly, not to be.
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MissT,
I'm so sorry. I'm going to be here if you want to talk.
MissT,
I'm so sorry. I don't know what else to say except I'm sorry.
I'll be thinking of you and your family.
Love you,
S&V
MissT,
Do you think that, even though you lost Laura, do you think there was still a good outcome, so to speak?
It's so hard losing someone, and I don't know what type of person Laura is, but if she was your friend, and your mother's friend, and your entire family's friend, she was a good person, but even in all of that, she helped you guys through a really difficult period in life, and I bet that brought her great peace and happiness to know that she could help even in her own little way, you know?
That might be the "happy" ending in all of this even though it's so hard?
I hear what you say mustard. Thank you.
Thank you smoke too.
I think there was a happy outcome in the fact that she was brought into our lives at a time when she was so needed and I loved her so much for that.
I'm just really sorry, MissT. I wish I knew how to make it better. I just want you to know that if you want to talk, when you're ready to, I'll gladly listen. You have an amazing group here and in your real life, and we can help you.
I'm just so sorry this happened so soon. It's so sad.
Thanks Mustard sweetie.
She didn't want anyone knowing how bad it was until the end. Then we got the warning that it wouldn't be long.
I have found out today that she's gone.
Just so much to take in so soon is all.
Miss T, honey, I am so sorry to hear about Laura. She must have been such an amazing woman and it was so sudden. Please give her family my condolences. I'm sure J. will be by a little later today.
Celebrate her life, even though I know your heart must be breaking. Too many are gone too soon.
Love you,
L.
I can't even begin to imagine, MissT. I don't know how our minds even cope with being dealt a quick blow like you guys have been dealt. It is a lot to take in just given the circumstances. And it's always so hard to deal with, death is. There's never a good way to approach it. You just feel, and you're entitled to feel everything.
Thank you L sweetie. I hope you are well.
I am just honoured to have known her right now.
I know mustard.
And she was such a part of our cancer journey too.
We would have been lost without her, she was like our angel.
She sounds like a beautiful, lovely person, MissT. Such a loss. I'm sending you, your Mom, you sister, Laura's family, all of you, good thoughts. I hope the begins to ease.
I've got to go take care of some things, but if you're up to it and want to, I think I'll be on AIM tonight if you want to talk about it, or we can not and we can make you laugh way too hard. :)
Love ya, MissT. I'll be thinking about you.
It is so sad, Laura was the one who battled bravely, always had a smile on her face, always believed she would beat it. Even thought it was hilarious when she had chemo and had to have a wig.
I'm sorry about your friend. She sounded like she had a lovely soul. she was also brave. She would want everyone to be brave too. Just remember that she was a good women and remember her by that smile on her face. It's sad for the people that she's left, but i truly believe that she has moved on to a better place and her kind of spirit was needed elsewhere. I believe when it our time to move on, it's only our bodies, but our souls stays forever. Keep her spirit alive and remember the happy times and the joy she has brought. Be strong miss T.
Thanks so much mustard. I will see you later.
Twisted sister, that was beautiful. You are right, she was an amazing woman and gave me amazing memories. She made me laugh so much and that is what I am rememebering right now.
Thank you so much sweetie.
Miss T, I'm so sorry for your loss. It sounds like Laura was a very positive influence in your life, and I know the pain of her absence must be excruciating. You and your family are in my heart and thoughts.
*hug*
Thank you so much Andrea sweetie.
Laura was so special. It will be a great loss to everyone who knows her.
Just so sad.
Miss T,
Words cannot express how truly sorry I am for your loss. I'm so sorry that you lost an amazing and wonderful friend. My thoughts and prayers and hugs goes out to you and the families.
But as the others said, always remember the good times, the smiles and the laughs that Laura gave you. Those are infinitely precious and should not be taken for granted. Keep her in your heart always.
We're here for you. Always. All my love to you.
Thank you so much BC sweetie.
I am remebering the good times. I think the fact that Laura hid the illness till the end so none of us saw her sick means we are only left with the good times.
Just know that your friends are crying right along beside you miss T. You are sweet person.
A heart is not judged by how much you love; but by how much you are loved by others. OZ
That is for you Miss T, that is what makes you special.
Thank you so much Twisted sister.
I am so touched.
I don't know what to say. You are too kind.
I am so very sorry, Miss T.
I am squeezing you from a distance.
Thank you RW.
That squeeze feels good.
Miss T: ♥
♥ you too.
MissT:
I'm so sorry for your loss. Laura sounds like a wonderful person ~ a fighter with grace who was an inspiration to all who knew her.
Do all the crying you need to do and don't be afraid to let others help you cry. I wish I could be there to do just that, MissT.
Let her light keep shining in your memories...
If you need to talk, please e-mail me and I will hop on the other place.
Hugs and Much Love,
Wendy
I wanted to leave this for you, MissT. It's brought comfort, to me, many times over the years. I hope it brings you a bit of comfort.
I Am Always With You
When I am gone, release me, let me go.
I have so many things to see and do,
You mustn't tie yourself to me with too many tears,
But be thankful we had so many good years.
I gave you my love, and you can only guess
How much you've given me in happiness.
I thank you for the love that you have shown,
But now it is time I traveled on alone.
So grieve for me a while, if grieve you must
Then let your grief be comforted by trust
That it is only for a while that we must part,
So treasure the memories within your heart.
I won't be far away for life goes on.
And if you need me, call and I will come.
Though you can't see or touch me, I will be near
And if you listen with your heart, you'll hear
All my love around you soft and clear
And then, when you come this way alone,
I'll greet you with a smile and a "Welcome Home".
*huge hug*
miss t, i just read your news. i'm so sorry to hear it.
i know we don't get to talk to each other anymore, but please know that my heart is going out to you right now.
*hug*
Miss Tottenham,
Sweetie.
I just caught up, and I want you to know that I know it's hard to think that Laura is gone, but she is in a better place. I bet she's looking down on you right now, smiling. You're one strong person for everything that you've had thrown your way. Hun, it's okay for you to cry. I did TONS of that after I lost my Auntie a few months back. Same monster that took your friend Laura. I'm sorry that you had to lose a friend of yours.
I love you Miss Tottenham, don't ever forget that. It might be hard for you to do, but you can keep her spirit alive, within you. Everywhere you go, she can/will be there with you. In your heart.
*hug*
xoxox
- 007
<4
Shit.
<33*
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I try to leave you a nice comment, and it goes to shit with a stupid <4. :(
*gives Miss T the biggest squeeze full of love that I can manage*
I also added Laura and Dominic's name in my new blog, just for you Miss T. I hope that in the midst of this tough situation, it will bring you a smile and a piece of hope.
I love you tons.
miss T!
just read your sad sad news.
i am so sorry.
my thoughts are with you and your family. it is so sad that often life doesn't work out how we want it to. still there are always the memories.
♥
Hiya Miss T,
I just wanted to say, I am so sorry for you're loss. But I am glad you got to know her, dispite losing her too soon. Meeting her, and understanding her, that was a gift. I know you will treasure that forever.
I don't think people will ever understand how much we all so incredibly shape each other -no matter how long or short we are in each others lives. I am so happy you got a chance to know her MissT. I really am. And I know she is still happy to have known you, and you're family.
So much loss all around us. But I truly feel our time in this place is our greatest gift. And I have no doubt that Laura used her time to the fullest. She was a fighter, you should be so proud of her. And I am sure you know, you will see her again someday.
Love to you Miss T, <33l/d
Thinking about you. ♥
Thank you so much Wendy, those words are amazing.
I am so touched by all the tributes from everyone. Thank you for going to the trouble. *huge hug* to you too sweetie.
Thank you so much TJ, timezones are a bugger. I miss our daft chats (wasabi). Thanks again sweetie.
Thanks paperheart. I am so sad that the same monster is still taking people.
You too are a strong person and I love you too. It's just so sad for the people left behind. Thank you for being here sweetie.
Thank you so much BC. I am so touched that you have included her name on your blog. You always do amazing things that make me smile. I love you sweetie.
Thank you so much FASC. I am remembering the good times and trying to smile.
Thank you so much Lewis. You are right. It is amazing how we are brought into people's lives and how they touch us. I will always be grateful for Laura.
Thanks mustard sweetie. ♥ you
I am more than happy to do it Miss T :)
You take care, okay? And please let us know if you need to talk, anytime. You have always been a great friend, despite the timezones, and I love you for that.
Many special hugs and hearts to you.
MissT, thank you so much. No one has heard back from her, so I'm still worried. It's out of my control. Don't you just hate that?
Thank you for being my friend too, MissT. ^_^
Thanks BC sweetie. You are a star you know that?
Anytime K sweetie. It's the not knowing that is a killer. I hope you get some news soon and that it is good.
You are a good friend to her and to all your mates in blogland. I am happy if I can be that back.
*hugz*
I'm so sorry, Caz.
You're in my thoughts. ♥♥♥
Thanks so much sis m sweetie.
♥ you
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